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Golden streaks of the sun rearrange themselves to fit on painfully boring window blinds and an adjacent shy corner. As I look to my right a rather different scenario takes place. The glass windows which face the backyard, are also closed by blinds. However, there’s a larger perimeter of watercolor reflections; yellow, white, and at times a strange hue of grey. I sense a glimpse of something on the corner of my eye, and what my eyes saw surprised me. I perceive the window blinds overheard my senseless description of them earlier, because this time the glow of the sun seems deeper, richer, and warmer. I quietly apologize to them as I observe in awe this radical change. I also must take back what I said about that shy corner. The light on it is brighter than the reflection on the window and the door. The sight is quite mesmerizing. It's only a narrow strip illuminating almost the entire wall, and it looks beautiful. I'm proud of that shy corner. It proved me wrong.
The Importance of Light
I'm still sitting here like a complete clueless overslept individual, typing out these words and trying to make sense on what to write about. Also, thinking why would anyone want to read this entry. But then again as I ponder about light, reflections, angles, and blinds, my mind wonders about how these concepts could be appreciated if I were a passenger on a train. And not any kind of train, but the ones that have glass ceilings and huge windows. When you travel, you go through tunnels and pass by blankets of shadows provided by mountains or trees. Sometimes there's no shelter for your eyes if the journey gets interrupted by endless skies exposing the rays of the sun. When I was first introduced to the concept that my faith life is a faith journey, or a faith walk, I found it frustrating. As a person who needs constant prayer in the department of patience and self-control, the term seemed upsetting more than anything. Once I had accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior, I thought: "This is it! Things will finally be perfect!" The brightest light consumed my eyes exposing truth after so much trauma. However, as I kept expanding in experiences, years, knowledge, and wisdom I found out that I was missing something. Even towards the last days of 2017, I tried to analyze what that was. For years I couldn't place my finger on it. Then the lightbulb turned on. I don't know if it was my rational mind or the Holy Spirit that revealed this to me, but it turned out that I was living a joyless and hopeless life. A joyless and hopeless Christian. A unicorn amid humans. A rare thing. But is it really that rare?
The Benefits of Joy
Joy is not a quick come and get it drive through product with an expiration date. Therefore, you shouldn’t covet or envy it. It has your name on it, and it's waiting for your hands to pick it up, own it, and decide to nurture it like a freshly cut bouquet of peonies in May. You get to decide whether to choose it or not every single day. David, was known to speak to his soul when things got difficult in his life. Psalm 43:5 shows the evidence: “Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise him again--my Savior and my God!” Even in moments of loneliness, extreme isolation, and uncertainty, David chose to change his mind and attitude. Can I be honest? This is so hard!!! However, the more you practice doing it daily, the easier it’ll get. Joy has its benefits. It motivates you and it gives you strength to endure the battles of your life. Scripture tells us the following in Hebrews 12:2: “looking unto Jesus the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising shame, and hath sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.” You know how you sometimes read the bible and just skip verses and not pay much attention to them. Well this is one of the gems I found during the dark cave of this current season. I couldn’t help but cry. If the Savior went through that kind of depletion and still made it to the other side of pain, then I knew I could too. Friend, you can as well.
The following is a recollection of things I have learned during this season. I pray it helps and blesses you.
Let's pray, shall we?
I pray every person who is going through a difficult trial or situation to disregard discouraging thoughts and voices. I pray their soul is well during the test, and may your loving nature guide them as they pour out their hearts to you Lord. Be the lifter of their heads. Today and forever.